Dreams

Ok. Today,we went to Kiel's parent's house for his mom's birthday. Kiel's brother's Daniel and Todd were there. But after we got home, I was feeling really tired. I ended up laying down and taking a nap. I started dreaming. What I dreamt still bothers me.

I dreamt that I was in the mountains somewhere, I'm not sure where. My brother, Andrew, was there. He had Mom's jewelery box with him. I was talking to him, and I asked him if I would ever be able to talk to Mom and Dad again. He looked at me and said, "No, we don't want you anymore. I don't think Mom and Dad will ever want you to be their daughter again." I started to run away from him, and no matter where I ran, he was there. He kept handing me Mom's jewelery box to me. When I looked inside of it, it had all of my baby jewelery; my necklace I wore in K-5, pendants that I have been missing ever since I left home and wondered what happened to them.. It was crazy. No matter where I went, he kept saying, "We don't want you anymore. You're not my sister anymore." Andrew looked older, almost like he was grown. He definately looked different than he did when I last saw him.

I awoke in a cold sweat and tears, and I hardley ever do that. Not to mention my clear skin had sprouted a zit on my chin. I felt emotionally drained, and weighed down. Even now, hours later, the dream is so fresh with me that I can't get it out of my mind. I think I'm going to call Anita. Anita always helps me to feel better.